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Where Am I ?

Posted by Mummy Dearest on Jan-18-2003

Oh, I’m caught right now in that little place, still divided in two pieces, intellect versus emotion. I know what is happening, I’ve done this before. In two weeks, I shall prep myself up for the big date and have another U/S. If things go as they did with that poor, bad luck baby, this time I will see something. I will wonder how it could grow, having been all of this time dead, I will peer and search the screen, looking for the heart-beat which should have been the first thing to catch my attention.

If I go back over the history of my poor, sad , bad luck baby, I know that this will drag out another month. And yet, you know, a part of me says, well, miracles do happen. You never know, there could be a heart-beat.

How cruel we are to ourselves.

  1. Stephanie Said,

    I feel your pain and can empathise. I actually deluded myself for several months, imagining I were one of those clueless women who didn’t know they were pregnant until poof!

    {{{HUGS}})

  2. Angel Said,

    {{{HUGS}}}

  3. sue Said,

    I know that I’m kidding myself, I know I’m just dragging it all out, but I’m going to start taking my vitamins again today.

  4. bridget Said,

    You know my story – I’ve been exactly where you are. I took my vitamins too. For what its worth – Brian and I are thinking of you.

  5. bridget Said,

    You know my story – I’ve been exactly where you are. I took my vitamins too. For what its worth – Brian and I are thinking of you.

  6. sue Said,

    I know Bridget. Sometimes, and I know this sounds horrid, I think it would be better for me if I hadn’t heard your story.

    But I would probably still take my vitamins, still hope.

    I guess that it is just human nature.

  7. Catherine Said,

    Hugs, Sue.

  8. Karin Said,

    Okay, I won’t be “nice”, at least not too nice. Niceness makes the emotions flow. Just gentle hugs.

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