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Age Brings…

Posted by Mummy Dearest on Sep-8-2005

One plus about getting older is that you come to really understand how you work, sortof get to know yourself inside and out, find patterns in your behavior. For example, I have learned that I always over react to things, and so- when I find myself upset- I do just my damnedest to keep my mouth shut, until that great wave of emotion passes, as it always does, leaving me sensible once more.

With this knowledge, I can also look back into the murky past and find new interpretations of my behavior, w-a-a-a-y back then : as a young girl, I was a drama queen, a lonely samurai in the pre-teen and teen group, dragging my sword valiantly behind me as I faced hardships which would have crushed lesser samurai. Brave and noble, the lonely samurai, me.

Bushido.

Now that I find myself a mother, I often wonder how my mother handled me with such grace and patience. During the 24 years that I knew her, she rarely lost her temper with me . A few times, she hissed between clenched teeth the classic Mummy line : one day, when you have kids…

The time that I provoked her the most, this pearl dropped from her lips : you are the best argument for birth control… Even at the time, I could appreciate an original line.

All day long, this song has been in the front of my mind :

|: Sometimes I feel
Like a motherless child :|
Sometimes I feel
Like a motherless child
|: A Long Way From Home :|
True Believer
|: A Long Way From Home :|

|: Sometimes I feel
Like a motherless child
Sometimes I feel
Like a motherless child :|

|: Sometimes I wish I could fly,
Like a bird up in the sky :|
Sometimes I wish I could fly,
Like a bird in the sky
Little closer to home

|: Motherless children
Have a real hard time :|
Motherless children
Have a such a real hard time
So long so long so long

|: Sometimes I feel
Like a motherless child :|
Sometimes I feel
Like a motherless child
So far away

|: Sometimes I feel
Like freedom is near :|
Sometimes I feel
Like freedom is near
But we’re so far away

|: Sometimes I feel
Like it’s close at hand :|
Sometimes I feel
Like the freedom is near
But we’re so far from home

|: Sometimes, sometimes, |
Sometimes
|: So far, so far, so far, :|
So far Mama from you, so far

And that day she wished upon me has come : I have kids and one seems to be just like I was.

Am.

  1. blackbird Said,

    …and somewhere your mother is smiling.

  2. Karan Said,

    high drama = creative thinking?

    I call that the mother’s curse….”Someday I hope you have a daughter just like you” My mom wished it for me. I’m trying to hold off of wishing it for Rejjie, you know break the cycle.

    But sometimes….it is sosososo tempting.

  3. sue Said,

    Actually, Blackbird, to be true to form, she would be chortling away, perhaps even gasping from laughter.

    How I miss that woman.

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