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Posted by Mummy Dearest on Sep-10-2005

Tonight is a very dark and very stormy night. We played cards at an ancient friend’s new home, in light bulb city. I didn’t feel like going, had my druthers, I would have stayed home.

But that was not an option.

As we drove home once again, in the dark, in the storm, a song came on the radio, actually, on the CD. I have always liked the song, for different reasons. Some times, it reminds of a boy from New Jersey ( I know… my fatal flaw), sometimes, it reminds me of our first dog, Humph.

Tonight, when I listened to the lyrics, it made me wonder what kind of mother I wanted to be. I know, I suppose that I should have settled this question long ago, but I haven’t.

I could insert the song, but I prefer to plug in the lyrics.

After all, it is the words I listened to tonight, in a new and different way, and wondered what kind of mother I should be .

Every breath you take
Every move you make
Every bond you break
Every step you take
I’ll be watching you

Every single day
Every word you say
Every game you play
Every night you stay
Ill be watching you

Oh, can’t you see
You belong to me
How my poor heart aches
With every step you take

Every move you make
Every vow you break
Every smile you fake
Every claim you stake
I’l be watching you…

No one ever told me that things would be so…hard to figure out.

  1. Julie Said,

    Gosh youre up late …why do you think youre
    so unsure of things right now , is it cuz Sally
    moved to the new school…and your life has
    changed abit ?….those are hard changes in a
    Moms life ..letting go is difficult…always has
    been and always will be…I know Ive been there
    Im wondering how Ill be when I get back to
    MIchigan and have the changes of Lisa getting
    married….thats a new one change for sure…
    but Ive always thought being a great Mom was to
    “listen” make what is imporant to them important to you and just be there to talk about whatever is
    imporant to them in good ways and bad…security is key …please feel free to email me if you want
    I hope you have a nice weekend… Julie :)

  2. Karan Said,

    I’ve not looked at that as an anthem to motherhood before, but it sure could be couldn’t it?

  3. sue Said,

    Julie, I often am unable to fall alseep after we *go out*.

    You know, I think you are right on target : Sally’s going to middle school makes me wonder if I should let go of her a bit, step back. I’m having a hard time trying to figure out what to do, what is the *right* thing to do.

    Thanks for pointing that out to me. I’m a bit lost at the moment.

  4. julie Said,

    Sue, well letting go is hard ,we as moms know that
    even its school .. dating .. driving … gosh its all tuff in its own way… but I really found
    that listening is the best … hah I rem Lisa
    saying to me “mom isnt matt’s blue eyes pretty?”
    and to myself Im thinking .. uhm sure Lisa ….
    but since it was imporant to her .. I made it
    important to me ( she was like 14 at that time)
    changes can be stressfull, Sue, but step back
    and dont worry till you have too , listen and
    keep your eyes open .. allow Sally to think she
    growing up and learning new things .. but in the
    end youre still the “mother hen” and waching over her… this is your oldest one , so Im sure thats
    why you feel like you do…just let her know you trust her and love her.. and will always be there for her no matter what .. keep it so she can tell you anything…and feel like she can come to you.
    well this worked for me and Lisa and still till this day does she discuss lots with me .. so Im
    happy with that …. good luck … Julie :)

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